I’m 35 and I have the body of a 75 year old. I take soo many pills in the morning that I’m full. I have been diagnosed with Epilepsy and Rheumatoid Arthritis both in the past 5 years and I’m scared.

Have you ever thought about why some people are sick and others aren’t? I do all the time. Do you believe that the food we eat has anything to do with it? I’m 5’5″ (and a half) and I’m 220lbs. That’s considered obease. I am obease. That sounds awful doesn’t it. My jeans are a size 16, my shirts are an XL, each one of my breasts are the size of my head, my thy’s are dimply and thick and my body is sore.

I believe that my diseases are caused by poor nutrition. You are free to argue with me if you’d like, I am open to every and all opinions. That being said, please be open to mine. I believe that auto-immune diseases are caused by what goes in your mouth. Does that stop me from going to the Chinese buffet for dinner.. not until today.

Last night I had enough of this body, of this life, of being obease and sore. I’m always sore and swollen. As I sit here in my office chair at work here are my list of ailments;

  • My right wrist hurts from typing this message, it’s burning
  • My right knee is swollen to double the size of my left one and it hurts to bend it to sit
  • My left middle knuckle on my hand is red, swollen and burning
  • My right jaw, ear and throat hurts
  • My jeans are digging into my stomach causing me to be uncomfortable
  • My neck is kinked from the way I slept last night
  • I have a rash under my breasts from my bra…

I could go on… I am not a complainer by any means. I’m a “who cares if the glass is half full or half empty, be thankful you have something to drink” kind of girl. I don’t talk about my ailments, I don’t burden people with my problems, but I’ve come to a point where I’m scared for my future. I was told last weekend by a medical professional that I will be walking with a walker in 10 years. WHAT??!! I will only be 45.

So what am I going to do about this? ANYTHING I CAN. The only thing I can control is my diet and exercise so that is what I am going to do!!

Wish me luck!!